I fall in hate, Got Inspired, Ace a test, Made ART, Speak the truth, Dance on tables, EMBRACING LIFE'S DIVINE CHAOS. Forgive myself. BREATHE. And ENJOY THE RIDE.......):D

I HAVE FOUND A JOB ~ ON 1 MALAYSIA DAY, I STARTED WORK! ):

I have finally found myself a job with MEALS PROVIDED and THE PAY IS GOOD! I am enjoying my work as well as fulfilling my time well-spent, and boredom has never been fought with such VICTORY!!!!!!! I like my job. I enjoyed working and saving my ass off for a trip to the MATTA FAIR and flying on an airplane all over again! Hooray! Next Year, I 'm going on a holiday trip with Mom! I can't wait my ass off the days to come and the year had never seem so LIGHT! Happy Christmas to come this year and a terrific start to a brand new year with a loving job! Happy- Go- Lucky!!!!!!

I have EXTREME HAPPINESS in my journey through life. I have experienced pain and agony but my thoughts and my aspirations have LIFTED me up! Hooray!

I just wanna be HAPPY than be RICH! Riched and Happy!

I have "HOPE". Live authentically and Savor each Precious Moment of your JOURNEY in life, because when you arrive at your destination, another journey begins at home. ):

I AM NOT AT A DEAD END! )D

COURAGE is going from failure to failure without losing ENTHUSIASM.~ Winston Churchill.

So they would not employ me because I'm 42. So I'm way past ahead of 35 years of age and their search is for 35 below. So I'm already out. So I can't bear heavy load, lift up heavy burden. So I always can't stand shit. COURAGE is going from failure to failure without losing ENTHUSIASM. Says Winston Churchill. Yayy. And besides, I might be the LUCKY ONE not chosen, because it's a LOUSY job. Says a good motivater, my MOM. Stay at home, be my mother's constant helper and assistant, hey, she has already pay for my afternoon out to buy crispy seaweeds! I shall work for my Mom!

I have never been so degraded. From an officer, since quiting my job, getting pay-cuts after pay-cuts, now I'm deem to be a "cleaner". I won't have it, I shall be my mother's ASSISTANT cum HELPER, nice name! Better than be graded a "cleaner". They only want guys for Supervisors! I am doomed to be inside a house! not an office or an office building washing dishes, at least I get first class treatment at home with my Mom!

My Mugs of Coffee and Tea are my CUPS of FORTUNE ~ Enjoyment and FULFILLMENT of the Soul :)D

My MUG OF COFFEE, many, many times a day. I am exhausted. MY THIRST IS FOREVER QUENCHED.......!

I drink CHINESE TEA a lot . I always buy MING XIANG tea. It costs only $5.50. Affordable. Last for ONE month. Chinese Tea is Good for You. So is Good Ole Hot COFFEE. Always keep you awake. No Doubt about it. Thanks and I had praise God.

By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning. )=D

I let go of my DESPAIR of losing my job. I have conquered over guilt. I have WON by letting it go and all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. 

Laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change. Kiss slowly, forgive quickly, Play hard, take chances, give everything, and have no regrets. Life is too short to be anything but HAPPY. ):D

DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY!

I didn't get the job. It's my destiny. FATE. Mom says it's a lousy job and the working hours are too long. THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH.):

Tears of joy. LAUGHTER. Not an insult but suffering in HAPPINESS......

Journal Entry dated 7th September 2011,Wednesday. ):

Endless waiting needs positive psychology to fight boredom. I badly needed to LOVE / LIKE my job in order to live an active life and enjoy the rhythm of work. It's the MONEY. The Money CAN motivate me and push me to greater heights. I must persevere and excel. I must be POSITIVE in my outlook on life and pursue my happiness in life. I know I can do it, given the chance and the opportunity. I shall grab every chance I have.

The least would be to wait for another week. But I badly wanted to start on the 12th. I prayed to God that she will call me tomorrow or the day after before Sunday comes. I am willing to work shifts. I can eat two meals that I like outside and go on my budget expense. I can choose the food that I put inside my mouth and not only eat my mother's food on the table at home. Infact, I shall not touch my mother's food at all the entire day from the day I start my training. I PRAYED TO GO FOR TRAINING AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

I am hot on pursuit of my Happiness. My reality in the pursuit is my happiness. I am glad. I hope to receive the phone call from the right person whom I wish to receive the call. Not some other person out to seek a future partner in life. I have no intention of starting another marriage. My money is at stake. I must first strive to find work and start a career which I enjoy living up my days with. I am in the pursuit of my own independence. My independence is my joy and happiness.

I wish to thank the Lord for my Mother's hand in this career-finding. I just want to praise God.

I pray to the Lord Almighty that He will ANSWER my Prayers, let my heart be rekindle and set a spark in my life! ):

LET THERE BE CHANGE!!!!!!!!

Changing Lives - an wholesome career at the Shopping Mall.......):

I am waking up at seven in the morning and working shifts until the day turns night. I am coming home at 11 at night. Since I don't sleep so early everyday, it won't hinder me or stay as a problem. I am going for a turning point in my life. A swift of change. A tale through time. I had always wanted it. This is my chance, this is my opportunity. My parents have agreed, and I am on my way to achieving my life goals. Money in exchange for a lifetime of a career fit for a lady......I am looking so much forward to it and counting my days till the day comes to an end. This shows how earnest I am towards finding a job and submitting to life's call and life's journey through the test of time. Halleluyah!