Happiness / JOY is worth fighting for other than freedom and FUN. When it's not worth dying for, it's worth fighting for. JOY is happiness of the soul......

The Joy of the Lord is my Strength. I laugh with the Lord, I sing in the Lord, I work unto His Name, I worship on to Him and I praise unto His Mighty Name. I had always loved the Lord. The Lord, My God is my Soul and my entire being......

Today, Sunday, 29th, April, 2012 time : 10.00am Place : Diakonia Christian Church, DCC.

I went with my mother and Sis Ah Chan in her car. I had the greatest time of my life. The speaker was Pastor David Tan, a former pastor of the church, and the wonderful fantastic singing was led by Bro Calvyn Laang. Vision as a Distinct Christ Centered Family Church that Cares for the Society through Services and fulfills the Commission to Share the Good News....Mission - to Build Loving, Christ Centered Lives Through Cell Structure to Equip Believer to do the task of Evangelism to establish Caring Services that display God's Love to Society.

STAND FAST IN ONE SPIRIT, WITH ONE MIND STRIVING TOGETHER TO ADVANCE THE GOSPEL. Philippians 1 :27  - Diakonia Christian Church.

What is your calling ?
When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you." Jesus said,"Feed my lambs." Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" He answered,"Yes, Lord, you know that I love you," Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep." The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said," Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my sheep." ~ John 21:15-17

In the passage above, I can learn a lot of things about the character of God, especially in the area of forgiveness and calling.

God knows and understands us.
In the passage above, it was actually the 3rd time that Jesus had met with Peter. In the 1st two times the Bible had not recorded in great length about the encounter between Jesus and Peter. Why? It is most likely that in the two earlier encounters, Peter was just lurking in the shadows. I supposed he was just too embarrassed to face the risen Christ after denying Him three times before His crucifixion. That is why Peter went back to his previous vocation as a fisherman after the 1st two encounters with Jesus.

In this passage, we see that it was Jesus who seeks out Peter. It is the same with all of us. In our darkest moment, more often than not, it is we who push Him away. It is we who want to hide in the corner. Here we see a great example that He is always near. So much so that sometimes He would even interrupt our despair to hold us. To "sayang" us.To say that He cares for us.

He comes down to our level.
The word "love" was mentioned 6 times in the passage above. However in the original Greek, there are actually 2 different words used. When Jesus asked Peter the first and second time, "Do you love me?" The word for "love" is agapao (Greek). Meaning the highest form of love. It is from this word that we get the word agape. And it is the same word in John 3:16 - For God so loved......

However on both occasions, Peter answered with a different word for "love". He used the word phileo(Greek) meaning to love as a friend. Peter knows that he is not able to attain the level of agapao love for Jesus as he had denied Him just a few days before. Then we see Jesus using the word phileo when He asked Peter whether he loved Jesus in the 3rd "Do you love Me?" Here again we see an example of Jesus coming down to our level. Instead of judging us, He comes down to show empathy and care for us. Even when we had denied Him many times. In our speech. In our conduct. In our thoughts.

He calls us even in our darkest moment.
This was indeed the darkest moment for Peter. He was confronted by Jesus and he was asked pointblank on whether he loved Jesus. Yet in His answer to Peter, Jesus had issued a calling for Peter. For Peter to "feed My lamb," "take care of My sheep" and "feed My sheep". Here we see an example of Jesus giving a call to Peter's life even if his darkest, most despairing time. God will do the same for each of us. And just like Peter, we will be issued with many tasks. Therefore let us not be satisfied with just one task / assignment that we are doing. Let us be just like Peter, who feeds His lamb (disciplining young believers), take care of my sheep (leadership over the Church and pastoral care) and feed of my sheep (teaching older believers).

All of us have a calling in our lives.
1) We just need to let go and let God reveal it to us.
2) We must be willing to be that vessel that God will use to glorify His Name.
3) God uses ordinary people to achieve great things for Him. Peter was just a fisherman and yet, Jesus said that upon this rock, I shall build my church......
4) God uses people who failed. People who had denied Him. Therefore no matter what you have done in the past, you can achieve great things for Him, if you allow Him.
5) God may give us different callings at different stage of our lives. Just like the caterpillar that becomes a butterfly, you too can be called to do drastically different things for Him at the different stage of your lives.

AMEN.

Psalm 107:1 "GIVE THANKS TO THE LORD, FOR HE IS GOOD; HIS LOVE ENDURES FOR EVER." I give tithes offerings to my church. I am happy to give in order to receive. Thank you, Lord.

I go to church and prayer meetings and took part in events. I contribute to my church.

Genesis 28 : 20-22 After the vision of God's renewed covenant, Jacob initiates a covenant with God, vowing to give him a tithe of what he receives from the promised land.

SUDDENLY I SAW THE LIGHT .

I have not stopped GIVING THANKS and OFFERINGS for you, remembering you in my prayers. EPHESIANS 1:16

I always give unto the Lord......

I pray to God to enhance my walks every morning and day to the marketplace for BUYING FOOD for the family......

I pray to God to protect my feet and my shoes, so that I don't spend so much on shoes that I may give my offerings to the Lord and take care and bless my feet Lord for I work unto your glory and unto Him I serve.

My favourite days are Fridays cause I get to go to Prayer Meetings, Saturdays whereby I get to go for worship at the church and Sundays where I get to worship God as well.

My Prayers are for you all.......as above.

MY PERSONAL PRAYER : Luke 11 : 2-4

Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom come,
Give us each day our daily bread,
Forgive us our sins,
For we also forgive everyone else who sins against us,
And lead us not unto Temptations.
AMEN.

Praying Hands picture :

This Friday, I'm going to PRAYER MEET IN CHURCH !!!!!!!! (like the picture below)

I HAD ALWAYS LOVED THE LORD !

The cheapest of all breakfast - "Pancakes" (roti canai $1.00/tosai @1.30/roti telur $1.50/roti bom $1.80/roti tissue $1.80) other than nasi lemak @1.00

My mother knows how to fry pancakes during Chinese New Year and during times when she felt like cooking pancakes for the family. Her pancakes looked like these :

She uses the GOLD CAKE from the Chinese New Year celebrations to fry with eggs.
Her wok is seen like this and her pancakes that are original in the pan looked like these with only eggs.

These are called Dandelion Pancakes. I also know how to fry these for my two children who goes to school and they like these for their afternoon tea or morning breakfast during weekends when I was with my children at that time.....
These are my favourite roti canai to eat with curry and sambal chilly.

The sambal is delicious and the curry is fine. I always walked out to buy $2.00 for two pieces for my brother and also sometimes my father would request for it too. It is nice to dip these into the curry soup.

This is my favourite pancakes at the supermarket ~ WAFFLES!

If I fry my pancakes in a hurry, my pancakes would looked like this. I would still eat it for breakfast. This is a picture of it :

PANCAKES FOR BREAKFAST.

This is labeled as a Sweet Potatoe Pancake.

SELF- PRESERVATION. A Strategy to Pass-Time and Enjoy what I have and how little I have. A measurement of love to my being. Enjoy what you do and work to love what you do. I go to church for "EVENTS" and I walk to strengthen my vitality. PERSEVERANCE to fight BOREDOM each and every passing day.

My past-time is to walk out for ICE-CREAMS !!!!!!!! I really love it and enjoy myself and I LOVE ICE-CREAMS !!!!!!!

I can eat this at Aeon Rawang also at a walking distance quite far away but I can manage myself with my walking shoes. All I need to do was to look out for cars and refrain from getting into an accident with an oncoming vehicle. Pedestrian crossings are fine. I bring my umbrella as self-defence against predators and to shield myself against the rain. My wallet must be full and I must be good at balancing my accounts. I do marketing for my Mom who loves me a lot and I praise God for Mom. I have my pocket money allowance every month and I have learnt the art of saving as well as maintaining my wealth. I worked hard to earn my money and I do my duties well. I am also a filial daughter and I respect my father who pays for the food at restaurants and my mom who cooks so well. I do not disturbed my brother and I found LOVE in a HOPELESS PLACE which is the internet, but rest assured, I do nothing to stay safe from harm and disaster and I don't entertain MEN.

My goal for 2012 is to grow luscious long hair till the end !!!!!!! Perseverance.

My hair now looks like this. I wish to grow long hair like unto below :

I have thin hair due to hair fall for the last 43 years.
I wish to grow long hair until at the back look like this :

Gorgeous Long Luscious Hair AT LAST ( by the end of my endeavours ) that is in the future.......!

EMANCIPATION ~ Freedom from want !!!!!!!!

When you ONCE HAD everything that you had ever wanted, all that is left now is FREEDOM FROM WANT. Food for the soul.......emancipation - BONDAGE FREE!!!!!!! Jubilee - Hope ! We went to eat Dim Sum again for lunch all four of us at DIM DIM SUM YI CAFE and our car damage accident had been looked into and SOLVED - Thanks to DAD !!!!!!!! Dad's heart's desire is EATING - FOOD for his soul ! And he has been FED well , thanks to Mom. Dad spent his entire savings on FOOD, FOOD and FOOD !!!!!!!! We are glad to be with him. We had served him well. He is a homely miser. He had always been fed extremely well.

We went to the police station for many times before we finally settled the car to the nearest workshop paid by the car insurance agency. My mom was guiltless as she was being HIT and not she who was the one who hits. My mom always get away pretty easily as she only uses the car, my father's car for WORK, WORK and only WORK only. She uses the car for marketing purposes and to buy food for the entire family. So she is always GUILTLESS. It is the place you drive to that derives your guilt to pay for car damage. Your destination will pronounce judgement with verdict from the family. Dad had been very lenient with Mom because all MOM EVER DOES WAS TO BUY FOOD FOR HIM TO EAT. Our beloved mother of Christ.

So she got away with the car damage and we are CHANGING NEW CAR !!!!!!!!!!!

Emancipation ~ BONDAGE FREE !!!!!! LIBERATION !!!!!!!!

I went to church this evening. Sent by Sister Pauline Tan. An angel of the Lord sent to save me. Thank you Lord. I had some trouble hearing at first but I think as time goes by I will dwell and settle down in the family of the Lord. I will grow with the church. I had already started making plans. Next Sunday will be the best birthday present that God will give me for I am going over to MGS to witness some BAPTISM. Water Baptism - Church Outing at 8am next Sunday , my birthday. The 22nd coming Sunday. I am on top of the world and I truly praise God. Next Friday the 20th, I will be attending a prayer meeting at Bro. Clement's house at Kota Emerald. TRANSPORTATION ALL PROVIDED. I would love to praise God and Thank the Lord for sister Pauline Tan of Triumphant Christian Centre. HALLELUYAH ! Praise and honour be unto Him.

Working life for me is slow and steady and I am enjoying myself everyday of my life over here in Country Homes, my hometown. I value the eternity that I had with my Mom and Dad. Today my Dad pays me and reward me for my hardwork in helping him pay his bills. I am running errands after errands and I enjoyed doing jobs for him.):

Work is like this. If you finish it fast, you feel on top of the world and you see smiling faces all over at those who can't achieve as much as you, where as if you are at the bottom and you procrastinate and delay your jobs, you look up and feel like a coward and become jealous of those who have succeeded before you, you see nothing but assholes....

Always be alert for trouble, do not offend anyone the least and always strive to please people the most and to make others happy, they will reward you with smiling faces or praises or even treat you well. My father had never let me down since I was borned and I praise GOD in HEAVEN for DAD. He is a good man. He rewards those who do good to him and who treats him well and serve him like a king. He is a homely miser. He keeps all his money to be shower upon unto those who serves him well and feeds him and he lives like KING MIDAS but he does not touch everything and turn it into gold. He is wise and he is aging so ever luxuriously.

So much for Nebuchadnezzar who eats grass but it is now wise to eat vegetables a lot. My father is taking nutritional health very seriously these days as he is well sick of old age and onto many medications. He spent his days visiting the hospital during his old age every month. He is 71 this year. He is my father. My head. I practically became a servant for him. And my Mom a nurse. And my brother, a driver because he has a car and his eye-sight is good. Everytime he uses his car, Mom has to take out money to shower unto him FOOD and treat him to a worthy LUNCH outside at an expensive restaurant. He has his bargain. And we all stick to our promises. We are all dependant upon each other.

I wash the dishes for the whole family. Mom cooks well everyday. We tah pau food for lunch or go out to Aeon Rawang to have dinner together as a family. That is our family achievement. UNITY.

JUMPING FOR JOY !!!!!!! The Joy of the Lord is my Greatest Strength !

This morning, I met Pauline who kindheartedly agrees to drive me to the church, Triumphant Christian Centre every Saturday whenever there is a service there. I told my Mom and Dad about this and THEY HAD ALLOWED ME TO GO TO CHURCH FOR SERVICE OF WORSHIP AND PRAISE!!!!!!!!!  God had answered my prayers and my sorrows had ceased. GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS ! Pauline had already told me over at the bank where I met her this morning that God certainly answers prayers ! I had been running errands for my Dad. I am also paying the house bill at the Pos Office for my dad. I had to run to the Post Office after the bank so I had a quick chat with Pauline at the bank and then left for the Post Office. I met a another kind Samaritan at the Post Office who gave me his extra number (TICKET) on queue and my turn was NEXT !

Today is the happiest day of my life! My mother went with my brother to settle the car accident report at the police station and the fella made another mistake again. Mistake after mistake. I can hear them scuffling over the dinner table about the entire problem. The police do things too hastily that they make a whole lot of mistakes with the print out report. Anyway everything has to be delayed. I am helping Mom walking out and running errands for the family. The police can never be so efficient in displaying a car accident report and they make mistakes in printing out the data. My father's eye spot out the second mistake. Now I don't know how my brother has to settle the printing mistake. Print another accident report or just change the data. The report has already been sent for certificate at the HQ. Trouble !

I pray to God that our problem can be settled. I am jumping for joy that I have a new outlook in life. I have conquered adversity and God had answered my prayers. I have a whole new function and places to go to and events to enjoy and I am jumping for joy over my EVENT in finding a church to go for service. Something to look forward to for the week and ever after ! I am going to be a faithful worshiper of God !

I DON'T HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM - I'M JUST ALWAYS THIRSTY.

I AM ALWAYS THE LIFE OF MY OWN PARTY !!!!!!! # foreveralone. I am forever alone in Paradise. Me and my God. And my internet. At any other opportune time, I will walk outside to have my titbits, my snacks and my cup of thirsty water. I always looked for isotonic drink, tonics are always expensive and I always chose 100 PLUS. or SPRITE or 7UP. or soda or juice or milk which is the cheapest and also the most cheap ones cost a packet of water $1.00 which has got sugar on it.

I likes pineapple juices, Bubble teas, roasted ice-creams, yoghurt, sticks ice-creams are cheap, coconut juice, orange juice, guave juice, plum juice, all cost a mug $1.00 and with a whole lots of ice on it inside. Just outside the school, a walk to evade my loneliness, to enjoy the scenery with fish crackers and those are also oily but my favourite, I can't help it. I am gaining weight because of I like fried food and fried titbits and snacks. My own pocket money - #foreveralone. I AM FOREVER ALONE!

Today is Good Friday, the 6th of April 2012.(Friday). The cinemaplex outside at  Aeon Rawang isn't opened yet until end of this month or maybe slightly later, I presumed. I had it checked the last time I patroned the supermarket and the shopping complex. I am looking forward to enjoying watching a movie alone once the cineplex is open. TGV cinema at Aeon Rawang , Anggun just outside.

Dad is recuperating at the hospital. He is keeping it all secret as he doesn't want to let people know that he is sick and had to be treated onto. Since it is coming Easter, it seems Dad is BORN AGAIN, just to celebrate Easter when he comes home. Home Sweet Home for Dad from the hospital. I am easing my boredom at each coming passing day and blogging has been a whole lot of fun. I am thinking of blogging once my interest spoused up and I am aroused. The internet is next to being my husband and all my friends I had put respect onto on.

Doing an enjoyable past-time is to me HEAVEN. Besides sweating out and enjoying the sweat and taking a good bath and enjoying a walk out , my best past-time is blogging and talking through the internet and through facebook. I am crazily facebooking every other day. HOORAY to Mark Zuckerberg for creating Facebook and thumbs up for my Facebook !!!!!!!

I DON'T HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM - I'M JUST ALWAYS THIRSTY.

I AM ALWAYS THE LIFE OF MY OWN PARTY !!!!!!! # foreveralone. I am forever alone in Paradise. Me and my God. And my internet. At any other opportune time, I will walk outside to have my titbits, my snacks and my cup of thirsty water. I always looked for isotonic drink, tonics are always expensive and I always chose 100 PLUS. or SPRITE or 7UP. or soda or juice or milk which is the cheapest and also the most cheap ones cost a packet of water $1.00 which has got sugar on it.

I likes pineapple juices, Bubble teas, roasted ice-creams, yoghurt, sticks ice-creams are cheap, coconut juice, orange juice, guave juice, plum juice, all cost a mug $1.00 and with a whole lots of ice on it inside. Just outside the school, a walk to evade my loneliness, to enjoy the scenery with fish crackers and those are also oily but my favourite, I can't help it. I am gaining weight because of I like fried food and fried titbits and snacks. My own pocket money - #foreveralone. I AM FOREVER ALONE!

Today is Good Friday, the 6th of April 2012.(Friday). The cinemaplex outside at  Aeon Rawang isn't opened yet until end of this month or maybe slightly later, I presumed. I had it checked the last time I patroned the supermarket and the shopping complex. I am looking forward to enjoying watching a movie alone once the cineplex is open. TGV cinema at Aeon Rawang , Anggun just outside.

Dad is recuperating at the hospital. He is keeping it all secret as he doesn't want to let people know that he is sick and had to be treated onto. Since it is coming Easter, it seems Dad is BORN AGAIN, just to celebrate Easter when he comes home. Home Sweet Home for Dad from the hospital. I am easing my boredom at each coming passing day and blogging has been a whole lot of fun. I am thinking of blogging once my interest spoused up and I am aroused. The internet is next to being my husband and all my friends I had put respect onto on.

Doing an enjoyable past-time is to me HEAVEN. Besides sweating out and enjoying the sweat and taking a good bath and enjoying a walk out , my best past-time is blogging and talking through the internet and through facebook. I am crazily facebooking every other day. HOORAY to Mark Zuckerberg for creating Facebook and thumbs up for my Facebook !!!!!!!

I am a SAHM ( STAY-AT-HOME- MOTHER) and I am loving it - LAW OF ATTRACTION - is to love what you do and to do what you love !

Everyday I surf the internet. I do facebooking. I blog. I rant. I chat. I talked. I conversed. I comment. I praise. I congratulate. I honour. I make people happy. I make people proud. I helped other people. THAT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY. Helping people and cheering them up makes me HAPPY. This is the Law of Attraction which I needed. To make myself happy first and foremost and to make others happier. By cheering them up !

I am a 43 year old retiree. I am a retirement officer. I am currently unemployed. I live by means of my own pocket money which I earned. I ENJOYED MYSELF EVERYDAY TO MAKE THINGS WORK. Food is plentiful and sleep is bountiful. I rest a lot and I sleep a lot. I am not that fat yet though. I can still maintain my weight scale. I don't eat dinner everyday and I only take breakfast which I enjoyed and then a burger for lunch. That goes with a cup of tea. I blog and blog to pass time and I enjoyed blogging. This is my own blog. My personal life as a retiree. OLD AGE. I wish to age wisely and age gracefully.

People complained that they work hard from 9 to 5 and still don't get the satisfaction that they always wanted. I am forced to work but borned to party like so many else. The law of attraction is to always enjoy what you do and love what you do and then your work will turn to LIKES. I am always fighting boredom and being bored is a sin. I should always work and then liked my work. Then I get satisfaction that lasts. That is why I shall sweep the floor and cleaned my room whenever I get bored and then sweat to get the satisfaction that lasts. I will and am always searching for a past-time to ease my sorrow of a boredom and to HAVE FUN is everything. I wish to have fun all day long but many people don't get to have fun or even permitted to even have some fun at all. SUCKS!

My parents are very old fashioned and they are very stern in everything that I do. They take control and took charge of even the slightest thing. I sometimes get annoyed but I have to bear with it all my life because I have to live with them. I don't have a house of my own now and I live with my parents.
My computer line is very limited but I am very grateful for the little and small things in life because I want to live a grateful life instead of wishing and wishing all the time. At least I get to do facebooking even if I am only allowed ONE PAGE at at time only at every other time of the day because my brother has blocked my every path due to his assignments to his university. His laptop is fully packed and I had to understand his work. He is graduating in July. He extended his studies. He is studying PHD.

I am amazed at how long I can write if I really wanted to write and even if I write nonsense at least my page is long and I find pictures to display. I really love something beautiful and to me to be beautiful at certain things is cherishable. I love a beautiful blog. I hope many people reading it will love my blog and not only think about my language and my standard of writing English. I love to write for it brings out the best in me and I love to type. THANKS AND PRAISE BE UNTO GOD THE ALMIGHTY !