I AM FOREVER ALONE LIKE YOU.......,#foreveralone...

This afternoon, Mom took me to Aeon Rawang to shop. She went inside Jusco Supermarket to buy FOOD while I go get my "LUNCH". #foreveralone. I walked around the shops until I found my niche that I like. I went inside KENNY ROGERS ROASTERS... and ate RM19.15 of Quarter chicken with NO drink. I had to pay service tax and government tax so that adds up to the score. The actual amount for the Quarter Black Pepper chicken with three assortments and a banana muffin costs RM14.50.

I then decided to buy BUBBLE TEA, Tealicious Bubble Hainanese Tea. I chose the cold one with ice-creams and the most expensive one as I wanted to "scratch" myself (my own wallet). I had the most delicious FOUR SEASONS BUBBLE TEA and I shared it with my Mom whom I found later.

I only spent about roughly RM30. I AM FOREVER ALONE WITH MY MOM !!!!!!!!!

#foreveralone because I chose freedom with my own two hands and freedom of choices, my own choice of food which I pay with my own wallet. My own hand from the work that I done everyday to earn a small honest living. No concerts for me but later I'm gonna watch MOVIES with my Mom !!!!

I AM FOREVER ALONE and I LOVE IT !!!!!!!!

Imagining the "FREEDOM"........)=

Two years since I came back, since I came home to my Mom and Dad, I had been locked up, imagining my freedom at a glance through the internet. I surf and surf the internet everyday, as a means for my freedom. I love it. It's not that I am engaging in an affair or something or someone who is at my danger of being raped or tormented, I am just surfing through my past-time, as a hobby, as a means to "kill" time in an effort to erase "boredom".

LACK OF FUNDS. I anticipated the enthusiasm and the excitement of each new blog I arrived into and I respected every entry with ease and wisdom. I spend my time chasing after the internet to fight boredom. LACK OF FUNDS. For fulfillment, a lacking in funds. I had to preserve what is right as a girl, as a woman as my duties to be fulfill, to stay by my mother's side and be aware of my duties.

Or else I would be flying across the world, across the continent like an eagle, flying high in the sky, like the picture above, the second one , seen in the eyes of mine, a limited zone, a limited condition. I so long desperately to fly , on an aeroplane one fine day, maybe this year 2012 if I am damn lucky, with my father who is sick and also with my mother.

IMAGINING FREEDOM..........)=  My freedom and my boundaries are so limited, it SUCKS !

Thank You Lord !

An Angel Of Death Passed through my door, yet another time.... date : 30th January 2012, Monday. Time : evening, around 4-5 pm.

This is exactly how my dog looks like. Mom and I raised a WATCH DOG for two years...He looked like this before he died. On Monday, 30th January 2012, around evening time as we were out walking, taking a stride to ease our burdens and to exercise fit for health, the angel of death passed through our doorstep and tooked away our dog, he was two years old... Lucky the angel didn't take away my poor sicked auntie's life, instead he took away our dog, a watch-dog for our house.

Mom said it was a sign, and I said it might be an omen as I saw a small toad behind our back door last Sunday evening, as I opened the door. Mom said the dog was lame and had his one leg held up as if bitten by something, probably a snake, a venomous snake and it died once the venom reaches the heart in about one hours time.. late in the evening last Monday. I was the last one to know about the news as I had gone walking down the lane and rows of houses and taking a stride as usual. Mom was practically crying and had scolded me and asked if I had beaten up the dog's paw or leg so that it was lame all through the ordeal. I said to Ma, I did not beat up the dog for goodness sake. I would never do that to an animal without permission....The dog had been chasing after "something" and was making a lot of noise BARKING at around 4 noon.

Then my parents tied up the dog before going for their walks and the dog acted strange and would not bulge. Mom had to drag the dog on its leash and finally it walked and then it became lame. My parents went for their routine walks and later when they reached home the dog was already lying down on the ground with saliva flowing out from its mouth and is already dead. It would not bulge as my father slowly shake the dog and it lay still and didn't move at all. It was hardly breathing and its heartbeat was gone. My brother was informed and he came down to inspect on the dog and pronounce him dead. I later arrived at the scene and heard all the commotion. I was deeply sadden at the loss of our dog. HE WAS A GOOD WATCH DOG. I pray that God will send him to heaven and at rest. THANK YOU, DOGGIE FOR YOUR SERVICE....

P.S. Mom forgot to give him a name. And we only called him "dog" .

I had an "AFFIRNITY" with the broomstick, dustpan and mop. )=

Eversince I was young, eversince I had been to school, I had duties and duties of duty-rosters for sweeping the floor, taking out the garbage, and other routine work like washing toilets. Little did I know that LATER IN LIFE, will I have an "affirnity" with the broomstick. I thought about witches and witchcraft in the olden days and I was cheated and lured into to believing that witches ONLY had an affirnity with their broomsticks in which to fly.

Now I am sweeping the floor every other day of my life. I am mopping the floor clean, taking out garbage to throw and washing toilets to take after my mother !!!!!! BLOW WIND BLOW! I can never get away from my duties as a wife, as a mother, as a housekeeper, as a NOW "tah siao chea" back to being the eldest daughter of a household in which I will have to help my mother who is the "BOSS".

POOR OLE ME!!!!! How can I ever be rich enough to have a maid in which to do the housework for me and for my mother????? We once had a MAID but my father turned broke and took away our "hands" and now we are had to 'serve' an old miser! But take heart, the BEST is YET to COME for our motives are clean and pure eventhough we complain, but our HANDS MOVED!!!!!!! We work and we work ! Mom cooks and cooks and I clean and I cleaned! Talk about slackerism. I had a little bit of slackerism in me because I am old and drowsy from being sick and taking medication. I WISH I AM IN EXCELLENT HEALTH SO THAT I CAN EARN A LIVING and put money onto their hands! Put money onto their hands ! PUT MONEY ONTO THEIR HANDS!!!!!!

This is what I do everyday......doodle. )=

I have not found a permanent job. The only job that I can take up is a part-time job because I am old and weary. I am also sick. My mother can't fetch me in her car. (and it's not that I can't pay her for transport - she's old and she can't sees the road well ). I don't own a car and I am not allowed to drive or it's my highway to heaven - or hell the least. I can't disappoint my parents yet if I take the roads and don't come back home. I prefer to stay safe and pleased my old folks. So I can't find transport and I don't have transport. My blood brother only wants money and he's gonna scratch everything out of me so I can't and won't ask him for help. He is selfish, jealous, stingy, stupid, lazy, "POOR" and a lousy partner who will never sacrifice for others not relevant to him and who will NEVER do CHARITY for other people and who wants his wife to worship him as "God".

So much for POOR people who doesn't know that the greatest gift that God can appreciate you is in GIVING . Give so that you may RECEIVE. He wants ONLY his returns......fast and easy...! I think the ROOT of his problem is he's unwilling to sacrifice for his own kinship and men. He can't and won't have sex with women or females because he is afraid of "losing" his money, his salary to PAY for his wife and if he were to take a wife even, she would have to be great, she has to earn a living and HELP him pay his bill and carry his baby and even had to Praise and Worship him as GOD!!!!!!! Lousy man.

So much for brotherhood. I long for friends with benefits....and not uptight relationships. But my parents would NEVER allow such foul-play, and everything comes with a price - PRICE TAG! How much can you pay me and how fast can I see returns ? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE FOR ME LATELY??????  Question mark. STUPID !!!!!!!! Love is of God.....Be patient and reap a harvest.

9GAG - a great sense of humour but at the same time, a reality. Sucks, Reality BITES. =D

I am borned a girl, thanked the Lord, but a girl has disadvantages too. But at the top is a boy's disadvantage. I don't want to insult anyone but let's just pray God will see and help you through in life's greatest problems and destinies....

For a girl, it is realistic too, she will be in debt exactly once she gets married and step into her new household. Exactly when she gets pregnant , and when she gave birth to her babies, she will be in debt, forever a loan....to her sons and to her daughters. )=

Life is like paying a debt. I pay a debt to my parents for my educations. I pay a debt to my mother for feeding me for all these years. I pay a debt to my father for paying my computer bills and multimedia. Debts after debts, forever a payment. It is very wise to have a chair and own a job occupation so that you can pay your parents back and fend for your own bills. Income and expenditure are very vital and crucial in a family and my family upbringing, you have to pay them back! It is forever a loan to be small. If you sacrifice hard enough to be a mother, you may get back your returns or you don't get any back at all !!!!!

So when you begin to start a family and raise babies, deal with it and do it the hard way, till the end so that you may reap a harvest and become a collector yourself !!!!! Pay bills, pay for your sons' education, eat and pay for the food, spend and give, collect and receive and most of all give, give, and GIVE !!!!!!

RESTAURANT DIM DIM SUM YI, RAWANG TOWN. 18 December 2011 (SUNDAY).

This morning, it is bright and cheerful and a beautiful Sunday. My whole family went out to have Dim Sum in Rawang again. We ate at Restaurant Dim Dim Sum Yi at Rawang town near the Old Town White Coffee. I managed to gather a handful of pictures that is bound to raise a gala table! Here there are :-

This is my BEST DIM SUM ever !

This taste VERY NICE !!!!!

We ate with chopsticks and drank Chinese Tea .....

Dim Sum GALORE !!!!!

Eat at your hearts content : 6 people, 6 heads total bill :RM 92.70 (Quite cheap, right ?)