Prawn Mee ~ Better eat now than never because my cholestrol ring is already here....

I have cholestrol but not very high. It is better to maintain it as from now. I shall abstain from having Prawn Mee once in a while; anyway the stalls don't sell it everyday. Certain days of the week. I shall enjoy life as it is but keep a look out on my cholestrol level. PRAISE THE LORD FOR PRAWN MEE !

Mission to visit my youngest son at his primary school in Khiew Bin, Batu Caves accomplished. GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS !!!!!!!!

My youngest son has been taken away from me by his father whom I have separated. He won't bring the kids to visit me nor pick up the phone to answer my calls. All my calls has been futile plus I no longer get to see my kids. This morning my father had to go to Hospital Selayang for a follow-up check-up. After dropping my father off at the entrance to Hospital Selayang, my mother and I went on a rendezvous visit to SRJK (C) KHIEW BIN, BATU CAVES nearby to visit him in school because my mother-in-law won't let me come to the house. She won't open the gate.

We saw him. My youngest son , Edward Tan Xue Heng aged 10, at Standard 4F the highest top floor of the canteen block. My mother had to climb the stairs in pain due to her arthritis and joint pain. My mother had knee pain after climbing stairs for the past year. Well, I saw my son, spoke to him but my heart was filled with sorrow. He did not respond or look at me in the face or even give me a hug. He had conformed to my mother-in-law's way of self-hopelessness and students called him "yah pah" (mute boy). I know my son, He had low self-esteem like his mother. That's why my mother-in-law looked down on me and my husband dumped me. No confidence. But I have found confidence in Christ ! TO GOD BE THE GLORY! Great things He hath done ! He had made the way for me to see my son again ! Thanks and praise be to GOD !

I am overjoyed to see my son again at his classroom but deeply saddened that he doesn't answer me and has low self-esteem. I found out that sometimes he is quite a cheerful boy and talks bubbly but at his own special timing! I praise God for him for no soul is so great than the one borned to the body and God had His own special PURPOSE in providing for him ! May Angels protect Edward and guard over him from the hands of the spanking evil Witch (my mother-in-law ) but I believe God had a PURPOSE for me to leave him there at her hands. I shall keep on praying and praying for both of my children . I am a prayer warrior !!!!!!!

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who are called according to His Purpose.

 

GOD IS LOVE.

 After coming home to be with the Lord and His church, I have found solace and guidance in the Lord and my relationship with God has improved a lot over the three year period that I have been back home in Bandar Country Homes. I truly praise the Lord for His blessings and I hanged on to His Promises to me. And my Hope in God increased each and every passing day and my strength I drew from my church friends. I am grateful to the Lord for showing me the way and the path of Light. I am safely back home now. I still missed the children a lot but I have learnt to live each day with the Hope of seeing them again in due time. I am now back in Country Homes and actively attending church services to uphold my integrity of staying righteous. TO GOD BE THE GLCRY, GREAT THINGS HE HATH DONE !

I gave my two boys absolute FREEDOM and PRIVACY. That was what they had always wanted. Apart from food, which their grandmother can provide. I have FINISHED my JOB. My work is with the Lord. I strived for perfection but nobody is perfect in my in-law's eyes. Even in the Lord, I am not perfect. It is better over here with my own mother whereby I could change and I don't have to succumb to suicide when there's no other way to please the mother-in-law.....

Angels are forever watching me, and they are my guide and care taker of the realms of my mind.....

I am like Snow White except I have no strength that MIGHTY like HERS....... No Huntsman to survive me stake..... I rather NOT live in the shadows of the mighty fortress of FEAR....... I shall run to my safety as is and of now. Partake me O LORD !

I SHALL NOW RUN FOR MY LORD, JESUS CHRIST, OVER HERE IN BANDAR COUNTRY HOMES. Amen !

Anger Management~ There is no 'free' lunch.What do you give me?He wants something in return.He has not enough money or haven't had enough to reach heart's desire.Self-control.Learn to answer questions.Conditioned-Love.Everything is conditioned.I believe each and every human being in this world strive to be perfect like Christ to do His Will but all I see over here is ALL conditioned.You must pay back.Before and After.EXCEPT THE CHURCH.

Always find a Christian who has the Bible and uses the Bible as a Guide Book in life. God can work miracles to those who believe in Him and do His Will and follow God's Law and Commandments and who always works with Prayer. The Holy Spirit will guide him and shower upon him ways to solve his problems and manifest amazing cures and miracles and open passage ways to new opportunities and new things. Then money will come easily.

CONDITIONED Love ~ What the man contributes to you, he wants it back.......Return his love and his blessings ; Remind yourself of his EGO. Only GOD has Agapao (Agape) - UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. And you can give this to your children, Agape Love. (Only if he deserves it) =D

SUMMARY OF KEY POINTS :

According to your life, your duties have been prescribed for you; follow them and your desires will be naturally fulfilled. Many teachers preach that you must do what you love, then you will be very good at your job. This is only part of the story. Most people have not reached a clear state of realizing exactly what they love to do and what they are good at. These people need to go through a period of discovery. By simply being aware that there is a Divine plan for your life that waits to unfold in the course of life itself, you will begin to be consciously in tune with every incident that comes into your professional and personal life. Treat each incident with the eye of a good detective and try to unveil the mystery of your fate.

It is impossible to attain true spiritual perfection if you have avoided discovering the path by which you can contribute to society as an individual. Human beings' efforts to mold the outcome of given situations is nothing compared to what Heaven can do. When things don't turn out as expected, it might be a blessing in disguise. Understand the wisdom of the Dharma of acceptance and surrender. It is possible that self-effort, which incorporates human will, desire, and ability, is part of predestination, and this predestiny cannot unfold of its own accord. Therefore, predestiny and self-effort become two wheels of the same cart. BE TRUE TO YOUR LIFE, TRUE TO YOUR DESIRES. Some people say, " If God himself would just speak to me and let me know what He really wants me to do, I would be delighted to do that, no matter how meaningless and humble the work." In fact, God has spoken many times, but they weren't listening.

Sometimes people feel that whatever the work they are doing, it could not be what God intended for them. They blame the work. The missing piece here is not what is wrong with the work they are doing, but rather understanding the work they are performing right now in the context of the bigger picture of their destiny. The Dharma of an employee is to support the employer wholeheartedly. If you cannot support the company you work for, quit your job. You don't have the freedom to sabotage the company's morale and reputation through your constant expression and dissatisfaction. BY LIVING UNDER THE GRACE AND GUIDANCE OF DHARMA, LIFE ITSELF BECOMES THE ETERNAL WISH-FULFILLING TREE.

My mother-in-law was the Thief of Peace and the Serenity Stealer.

I had to fake up a smile everytime I do toilet cleaning to take after my son's poo. I loath the noise and the sound of "orders orders orders". I know how to do it well and I do it consciously. I clean after my own poos well and hide all contaminations....

But the one thing that I loath was that my heart was always in tears and sorrow. It was always being broken a thousand times.... The mother-in-law is noisy and her daughter is also loud and has many nosy poking hands....

The Thief of Peace and the Serenity Stealer - Both of them.

Keep a respectful distance from those who would steal your peace and serenity. In your daily life, you will run into this type of person around every corner. These people are not necessarily cunning or ruthless, nor are they a real threat to your career and personal objectives, but they are eternally ANNOYING.

They operate by thriving on their own inferiority. Their actions and words are very cutting, even though people are nice to them. They also are gutless. On the one hand, they play up to the ruthless and cunning types who treat them like dirt, and yet they are mean to people who are decent and kind to them. These serenity stealers are people TO BE AVOIDED. Life put them in a place that they resent because they feel it is beneath them. To get even with life, they react by attacking those who are nice to them, while being very agreeable to those who abuse them.

They cannot help themselves; their actions are involuntary. The serenity stealers steal into your heart and confidence with their sweet, charming exteriors. But after you allow them to get close to you, they will snap at you in order to diminish you in their eyes. They try to temporarily elevate their own inner power and feel good for a moment, but are usually remorseful afterward. They can't help themselves, and so the pattern continues.

It is important NOT TO INTERACT WITH THEM in a similar manner. If you do, they will make a lifetime career of attacking you. These people are masters of "death by a thousand cuts." YOU SHOULD ALWAYS KEEP THEM AT ARM'S LENGTH. Then they will eternally respect you and solicit your friendship. They will then transfer their TROUBLESOME ENERGY to someone else. :)