Prawn Mee ~ Better eat now than never because my cholestrol ring is already here....

I have cholestrol but not very high. It is better to maintain it as from now. I shall abstain from having Prawn Mee once in a while; anyway the stalls don't sell it everyday. Certain days of the week. I shall enjoy life as it is but keep a look out on my cholestrol level. PRAISE THE LORD FOR PRAWN MEE !

Mission to visit my youngest son at his primary school in Khiew Bin, Batu Caves accomplished. GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS !!!!!!!!

My youngest son has been taken away from me by his father whom I have separated. He won't bring the kids to visit me nor pick up the phone to answer my calls. All my calls has been futile plus I no longer get to see my kids. This morning my father had to go to Hospital Selayang for a follow-up check-up. After dropping my father off at the entrance to Hospital Selayang, my mother and I went on a rendezvous visit to SRJK (C) KHIEW BIN, BATU CAVES nearby to visit him in school because my mother-in-law won't let me come to the house. She won't open the gate.

We saw him. My youngest son , Edward Tan Xue Heng aged 10, at Standard 4F the highest top floor of the canteen block. My mother had to climb the stairs in pain due to her arthritis and joint pain. My mother had knee pain after climbing stairs for the past year. Well, I saw my son, spoke to him but my heart was filled with sorrow. He did not respond or look at me in the face or even give me a hug. He had conformed to my mother-in-law's way of self-hopelessness and students called him "yah pah" (mute boy). I know my son, He had low self-esteem like his mother. That's why my mother-in-law looked down on me and my husband dumped me. No confidence. But I have found confidence in Christ ! TO GOD BE THE GLORY! Great things He hath done ! He had made the way for me to see my son again ! Thanks and praise be to GOD !

I am overjoyed to see my son again at his classroom but deeply saddened that he doesn't answer me and has low self-esteem. I found out that sometimes he is quite a cheerful boy and talks bubbly but at his own special timing! I praise God for him for no soul is so great than the one borned to the body and God had His own special PURPOSE in providing for him ! May Angels protect Edward and guard over him from the hands of the spanking evil Witch (my mother-in-law ) but I believe God had a PURPOSE for me to leave him there at her hands. I shall keep on praying and praying for both of my children . I am a prayer warrior !!!!!!!

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who are called according to His Purpose.

 

GOD IS LOVE.

 After coming home to be with the Lord and His church, I have found solace and guidance in the Lord and my relationship with God has improved a lot over the three year period that I have been back home in Bandar Country Homes. I truly praise the Lord for His blessings and I hanged on to His Promises to me. And my Hope in God increased each and every passing day and my strength I drew from my church friends. I am grateful to the Lord for showing me the way and the path of Light. I am safely back home now. I still missed the children a lot but I have learnt to live each day with the Hope of seeing them again in due time. I am now back in Country Homes and actively attending church services to uphold my integrity of staying righteous. TO GOD BE THE GLCRY, GREAT THINGS HE HATH DONE !

I gave my two boys absolute FREEDOM and PRIVACY. That was what they had always wanted. Apart from food, which their grandmother can provide. I have FINISHED my JOB. My work is with the Lord. I strived for perfection but nobody is perfect in my in-law's eyes. Even in the Lord, I am not perfect. It is better over here with my own mother whereby I could change and I don't have to succumb to suicide when there's no other way to please the mother-in-law.....

Angels are forever watching me, and they are my guide and care taker of the realms of my mind.....

I am like Snow White except I have no strength that MIGHTY like HERS....... No Huntsman to survive me stake..... I rather NOT live in the shadows of the mighty fortress of FEAR....... I shall run to my safety as is and of now. Partake me O LORD !

I SHALL NOW RUN FOR MY LORD, JESUS CHRIST, OVER HERE IN BANDAR COUNTRY HOMES. Amen !

Anger Management~ There is no 'free' lunch.What do you give me?He wants something in return.He has not enough money or haven't had enough to reach heart's desire.Self-control.Learn to answer questions.Conditioned-Love.Everything is conditioned.I believe each and every human being in this world strive to be perfect like Christ to do His Will but all I see over here is ALL conditioned.You must pay back.Before and After.EXCEPT THE CHURCH.

Always find a Christian who has the Bible and uses the Bible as a Guide Book in life. God can work miracles to those who believe in Him and do His Will and follow God's Law and Commandments and who always works with Prayer. The Holy Spirit will guide him and shower upon him ways to solve his problems and manifest amazing cures and miracles and open passage ways to new opportunities and new things. Then money will come easily.

CONDITIONED Love ~ What the man contributes to you, he wants it back.......Return his love and his blessings ; Remind yourself of his EGO. Only GOD has Agapao (Agape) - UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. And you can give this to your children, Agape Love. (Only if he deserves it) =D

SUMMARY OF KEY POINTS :

According to your life, your duties have been prescribed for you; follow them and your desires will be naturally fulfilled. Many teachers preach that you must do what you love, then you will be very good at your job. This is only part of the story. Most people have not reached a clear state of realizing exactly what they love to do and what they are good at. These people need to go through a period of discovery. By simply being aware that there is a Divine plan for your life that waits to unfold in the course of life itself, you will begin to be consciously in tune with every incident that comes into your professional and personal life. Treat each incident with the eye of a good detective and try to unveil the mystery of your fate.

It is impossible to attain true spiritual perfection if you have avoided discovering the path by which you can contribute to society as an individual. Human beings' efforts to mold the outcome of given situations is nothing compared to what Heaven can do. When things don't turn out as expected, it might be a blessing in disguise. Understand the wisdom of the Dharma of acceptance and surrender. It is possible that self-effort, which incorporates human will, desire, and ability, is part of predestination, and this predestiny cannot unfold of its own accord. Therefore, predestiny and self-effort become two wheels of the same cart. BE TRUE TO YOUR LIFE, TRUE TO YOUR DESIRES. Some people say, " If God himself would just speak to me and let me know what He really wants me to do, I would be delighted to do that, no matter how meaningless and humble the work." In fact, God has spoken many times, but they weren't listening.

Sometimes people feel that whatever the work they are doing, it could not be what God intended for them. They blame the work. The missing piece here is not what is wrong with the work they are doing, but rather understanding the work they are performing right now in the context of the bigger picture of their destiny. The Dharma of an employee is to support the employer wholeheartedly. If you cannot support the company you work for, quit your job. You don't have the freedom to sabotage the company's morale and reputation through your constant expression and dissatisfaction. BY LIVING UNDER THE GRACE AND GUIDANCE OF DHARMA, LIFE ITSELF BECOMES THE ETERNAL WISH-FULFILLING TREE.

My mother-in-law was the Thief of Peace and the Serenity Stealer.

I had to fake up a smile everytime I do toilet cleaning to take after my son's poo. I loath the noise and the sound of "orders orders orders". I know how to do it well and I do it consciously. I clean after my own poos well and hide all contaminations....

But the one thing that I loath was that my heart was always in tears and sorrow. It was always being broken a thousand times.... The mother-in-law is noisy and her daughter is also loud and has many nosy poking hands....

The Thief of Peace and the Serenity Stealer - Both of them.

Keep a respectful distance from those who would steal your peace and serenity. In your daily life, you will run into this type of person around every corner. These people are not necessarily cunning or ruthless, nor are they a real threat to your career and personal objectives, but they are eternally ANNOYING.

They operate by thriving on their own inferiority. Their actions and words are very cutting, even though people are nice to them. They also are gutless. On the one hand, they play up to the ruthless and cunning types who treat them like dirt, and yet they are mean to people who are decent and kind to them. These serenity stealers are people TO BE AVOIDED. Life put them in a place that they resent because they feel it is beneath them. To get even with life, they react by attacking those who are nice to them, while being very agreeable to those who abuse them.

They cannot help themselves; their actions are involuntary. The serenity stealers steal into your heart and confidence with their sweet, charming exteriors. But after you allow them to get close to you, they will snap at you in order to diminish you in their eyes. They try to temporarily elevate their own inner power and feel good for a moment, but are usually remorseful afterward. They can't help themselves, and so the pattern continues.

It is important NOT TO INTERACT WITH THEM in a similar manner. If you do, they will make a lifetime career of attacking you. These people are masters of "death by a thousand cuts." YOU SHOULD ALWAYS KEEP THEM AT ARM'S LENGTH. Then they will eternally respect you and solicit your friendship. They will then transfer their TROUBLESOME ENERGY to someone else. :)

The Grace of Dharma.

The grace of Dharma works in subtle and mysterious ways throughout our life. John is in commercial real estate sales. He is hardworking and always performs his duties diligently, but as sometimes happens in this business, he went through a dry period. He spent an entire month carrying out his normal activities: lots of cold calls to prospects and visits to potential customers in an attempt to generate new business. All he got were rejections.

John was so depressed that he decided he could use a little vacation and took a trip to Hawaii. Once there, he quickly relaxed at the beach and started to enjoy himself. Within a couple of days, he ran into a fellow traveler who turned out to be a wealthy real estate investor. After all his hard work, and when and where he least expected it, he set up a very profitable deal.

John was puzzled: "All the hard work I did produced no results, yet here I am out playing, with work the furthest thing on my mind, and what do I get? A great client. Maybe working so hard is not healthy for business." What John did not know was that, due to his hard work, the power of Dharma shone its grace upon him as reward for his commitment to duty. Dharma became his protector and liberator. ):

"SHOPPING is cheaper than a psychiatrist" - I haven't bought clothes for a decade !!!!!! I went shopping at Pasaraya Khim just beside 7-eleven, BCH, Rawang. =)

As I can only affort to buy Graphic Tees, I manage to get hold of two Tees that after trying out at the fitting room, looked nice on me ~!

This is a replica of the T-shirt blouse for girls that I bought. As I don't own a camera or even a handphone, I can't take pictures but I can only get from the internet and describe exactly what I bought. A look-alike or a sheer resemblance to what I have just said. I bought two Graphic Tees that cost $17.90 per piece.

Both Tees cost me $35.80 and I am happy about it. I looked good just like the picture below. I can only afford two. Actually, I have enough for three, but I only wanted to buy two so that I can have left-overs for other things such as drinks......

I LOOK GOOD WITH JEANS !!!!!! I can wear to church with an overcoat when it gets too cold inside the air-con or wear at home to doodle or dwindle !!!!!!!

GOD SAVE THE QUEEN !  Praise and Thanks be to God !

I looked back at my life and wonder what I might have done differently, but I won't dwell on it. It's too painful. Coming home to my own family was the Best of Everything and God told me in my prayers that I had done the 'right' thing....Colossians 3:2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. My ex-husband and his mother will not allow me and my children to go to church and I myself have found my way back to church. Praise the Lord !

My new-found freedom in Bandar Country Homes...... Hurray !

WINNING AND LOSING.

The Masters Tournament is one of the most prestigious in professional golf. In 2009 Kenny Perry came second after leading during the final round. The newspapers described Perry as " disappointed but not despondent" after the loss. "I'll look back on it occasionally and wonder what I might have done differently, but I won't dwell on it", Perry said. "If this is the worst thing that happens in my life, I've got it pretty good. I won't let it haunt me. There are so many other things in life that matter more......I'll go home tonight with my family and we'll have fun."

The ability to look beyond our disappointments is essential for followers of Christ. Our focus determines how we face the victories and defeats in life. "If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth" (Col. 3:1-2) .This way of thinking looks to Christ, rather than our achievements, for significance and validation. We seek Him, not success. When we strive for excellence and give our best effort, losing hurts, but it doesn't have to harm us. The key is where we set our minds and hearts. - David McCasland. When Christ is the centre of your focus, everything else comes into proper perspective.

P/S I did not run away from my house. I had a scuffle with my ex-, I got angry, took a taxi cab back because I had to settle my credit card bills and seek my father about it, and my ex hasn't switched on his hand phone for two years since and had NEVER had the intention of driving to Rawang to reconcile. He had dumped me for good. My father was sick then and my own mother badly needed my help. So I had returned home to my parents and left my children under the care of the nasty and precocious Mother-in-law. She cares for the children but not in her heart and soul, for she had spoken on and off that she doesn't want kids and doesn't want anything to do with my children. She was forced to work, that luxury Grandma of theirs and she has been giving bad rapports about to everyone in the neighbourhood about my past mistakes and failures. .... I did not buy the wrong things with my credit card, I had BOUGHT FOOD for my children and PATCH up on FOOD for the family...

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When you are hungry, go to the kitchen........food for your soul ! My favourite food : The Kitchen God. The Best Job : HOUSEWIFE. A Time for Everything. :)

A time to enjoy your FOOD.....

This just once for a time of a snack, "burger". ( Not to be eaten with the rest, only when on a fine day, you are hungry ) To be eaten as "lunch" or a heavy breakfast after NOT eating dinner the previous day.

On a dull and heavy afternoon, a Mug of Coffee......Anyone?

REJOICE IN THE LORD, FOR HE IS GOOD......!

Happiness / JOY is worth fighting for other than freedom and FUN. When it's not worth dying for, it's worth fighting for. JOY is happiness of the soul......

The Joy of the Lord is my Strength. I laugh with the Lord, I sing in the Lord, I work unto His Name, I worship on to Him and I praise unto His Mighty Name. I had always loved the Lord. The Lord, My God is my Soul and my entire being......

Today, Sunday, 29th, April, 2012 time : 10.00am Place : Diakonia Christian Church, DCC.

I went with my mother and Sis Ah Chan in her car. I had the greatest time of my life. The speaker was Pastor David Tan, a former pastor of the church, and the wonderful fantastic singing was led by Bro Calvyn Laang. Vision as a Distinct Christ Centered Family Church that Cares for the Society through Services and fulfills the Commission to Share the Good News....Mission - to Build Loving, Christ Centered Lives Through Cell Structure to Equip Believer to do the task of Evangelism to establish Caring Services that display God's Love to Society.

STAND FAST IN ONE SPIRIT, WITH ONE MIND STRIVING TOGETHER TO ADVANCE THE GOSPEL. Philippians 1 :27  - Diakonia Christian Church.

What is your calling ?
When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you." Jesus said,"Feed my lambs." Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" He answered,"Yes, Lord, you know that I love you," Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep." The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said," Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my sheep." ~ John 21:15-17

In the passage above, I can learn a lot of things about the character of God, especially in the area of forgiveness and calling.

God knows and understands us.
In the passage above, it was actually the 3rd time that Jesus had met with Peter. In the 1st two times the Bible had not recorded in great length about the encounter between Jesus and Peter. Why? It is most likely that in the two earlier encounters, Peter was just lurking in the shadows. I supposed he was just too embarrassed to face the risen Christ after denying Him three times before His crucifixion. That is why Peter went back to his previous vocation as a fisherman after the 1st two encounters with Jesus.

In this passage, we see that it was Jesus who seeks out Peter. It is the same with all of us. In our darkest moment, more often than not, it is we who push Him away. It is we who want to hide in the corner. Here we see a great example that He is always near. So much so that sometimes He would even interrupt our despair to hold us. To "sayang" us.To say that He cares for us.

He comes down to our level.
The word "love" was mentioned 6 times in the passage above. However in the original Greek, there are actually 2 different words used. When Jesus asked Peter the first and second time, "Do you love me?" The word for "love" is agapao (Greek). Meaning the highest form of love. It is from this word that we get the word agape. And it is the same word in John 3:16 - For God so loved......

However on both occasions, Peter answered with a different word for "love". He used the word phileo(Greek) meaning to love as a friend. Peter knows that he is not able to attain the level of agapao love for Jesus as he had denied Him just a few days before. Then we see Jesus using the word phileo when He asked Peter whether he loved Jesus in the 3rd "Do you love Me?" Here again we see an example of Jesus coming down to our level. Instead of judging us, He comes down to show empathy and care for us. Even when we had denied Him many times. In our speech. In our conduct. In our thoughts.

He calls us even in our darkest moment.
This was indeed the darkest moment for Peter. He was confronted by Jesus and he was asked pointblank on whether he loved Jesus. Yet in His answer to Peter, Jesus had issued a calling for Peter. For Peter to "feed My lamb," "take care of My sheep" and "feed My sheep". Here we see an example of Jesus giving a call to Peter's life even if his darkest, most despairing time. God will do the same for each of us. And just like Peter, we will be issued with many tasks. Therefore let us not be satisfied with just one task / assignment that we are doing. Let us be just like Peter, who feeds His lamb (disciplining young believers), take care of my sheep (leadership over the Church and pastoral care) and feed of my sheep (teaching older believers).

All of us have a calling in our lives.
1) We just need to let go and let God reveal it to us.
2) We must be willing to be that vessel that God will use to glorify His Name.
3) God uses ordinary people to achieve great things for Him. Peter was just a fisherman and yet, Jesus said that upon this rock, I shall build my church......
4) God uses people who failed. People who had denied Him. Therefore no matter what you have done in the past, you can achieve great things for Him, if you allow Him.
5) God may give us different callings at different stage of our lives. Just like the caterpillar that becomes a butterfly, you too can be called to do drastically different things for Him at the different stage of your lives.

AMEN.

Psalm 107:1 "GIVE THANKS TO THE LORD, FOR HE IS GOOD; HIS LOVE ENDURES FOR EVER." I give tithes offerings to my church. I am happy to give in order to receive. Thank you, Lord.

I go to church and prayer meetings and took part in events. I contribute to my church.

Genesis 28 : 20-22 After the vision of God's renewed covenant, Jacob initiates a covenant with God, vowing to give him a tithe of what he receives from the promised land.

SUDDENLY I SAW THE LIGHT .

I have not stopped GIVING THANKS and OFFERINGS for you, remembering you in my prayers. EPHESIANS 1:16

I always give unto the Lord......

I pray to God to enhance my walks every morning and day to the marketplace for BUYING FOOD for the family......

I pray to God to protect my feet and my shoes, so that I don't spend so much on shoes that I may give my offerings to the Lord and take care and bless my feet Lord for I work unto your glory and unto Him I serve.

My favourite days are Fridays cause I get to go to Prayer Meetings, Saturdays whereby I get to go for worship at the church and Sundays where I get to worship God as well.

My Prayers are for you all.......as above.

MY PERSONAL PRAYER : Luke 11 : 2-4

Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom come,
Give us each day our daily bread,
Forgive us our sins,
For we also forgive everyone else who sins against us,
And lead us not unto Temptations.
AMEN.

Praying Hands picture :

This Friday, I'm going to PRAYER MEET IN CHURCH !!!!!!!! (like the picture below)

I HAD ALWAYS LOVED THE LORD !

The cheapest of all breakfast - "Pancakes" (roti canai $1.00/tosai @1.30/roti telur $1.50/roti bom $1.80/roti tissue $1.80) other than nasi lemak @1.00

My mother knows how to fry pancakes during Chinese New Year and during times when she felt like cooking pancakes for the family. Her pancakes looked like these :

She uses the GOLD CAKE from the Chinese New Year celebrations to fry with eggs.
Her wok is seen like this and her pancakes that are original in the pan looked like these with only eggs.

These are called Dandelion Pancakes. I also know how to fry these for my two children who goes to school and they like these for their afternoon tea or morning breakfast during weekends when I was with my children at that time.....
These are my favourite roti canai to eat with curry and sambal chilly.

The sambal is delicious and the curry is fine. I always walked out to buy $2.00 for two pieces for my brother and also sometimes my father would request for it too. It is nice to dip these into the curry soup.

This is my favourite pancakes at the supermarket ~ WAFFLES!

If I fry my pancakes in a hurry, my pancakes would looked like this. I would still eat it for breakfast. This is a picture of it :

PANCAKES FOR BREAKFAST.

This is labeled as a Sweet Potatoe Pancake.